Ahh..4 days no work.. im going crazy.. the stupid factory..
think me and wenbin going to find other job liao le..
cos really no choice ar.. the factory keep saying no work...
my hols going to end le ar, still no work..
work for 2 days onli lor.. wad de=.=
ohYa, yest went out with jianhao,haowei and camellia to marina square to
watch movie call "chuck and larry"..
on the train i saw hongjian my sec schmates..
really cant recognised him le ar.. cos he quit sch after im sec4.. quite long ago le.. he suddenly call my name and im so shocked lo.. he look so "bang" now.. OMG.. hope he din turn bad..
Hmm.. after the show haowei take bus home and the rest dun feel like going home so they come my hse.. at first i tot my father dun allow guy to come.. but he say ok lo.. LOLzz..
then jianhao say:"ur father wanna. . . . .me ar"
ahem.. the rest u all think ba.. hahas..
then when they reach my hse jianhao pay the taxi fare and after i had my supper at my hse i bring them to my hse nearby to walk walk and then to jp 7-11 to buy food and drinks.. hahas.. actually my hse got lotsa food and drinks lo.. but they ps to say...
We walk to a playground and rest, then camellia keep running about like a kid.. Wahaha.. while me and jianhao sit at a corner..
after playing with the playground facilities cam so tired till she fall aslp at the playground.. then left me and jianhao sitting at a corner and chat..
so lang man..hahas..
we both listen to music then after that dunno wad to say so we both remain silent.. hahas.. dunno y we both so gan ga lo.. hahas..
maybe bcos of the atmosphere?.. LOLzz..
we stay till 3plus in the morning then jianhao and cam sent me to my lift then they take cab home.. hahas..
hahas.. 2 days no work.. sO im here to post my blog.. hahas.. first day of work is still okay.. when come to the second day im damn tired de lor.. bUt luckily got that stupid uncle wenbin to joke ard with.. Hahas.. at first i tot we got nth to talk with.. but who noes.. when everyone is so tired onli we both keep crapping ard.. LOLzz..
Everyday meet up with wenbin and ronghui then take bus to work.. during break hour, me and rachel wait for wenbin,ronghui and my sis then go had our supper tgt.. hahas.. cos me and rachel is at line 1 and they are at line 4.. at the first few hr of first day.. me and rachel is at line 4 too de.. But after that we are sent to line 1.. and theres seats for both of us.. Wahaha.. uncle wenbin keep complaining and pleading me to change with him.. but too bad.. not up to my control.. LOLzz.. uncle wenbin sorry la.. Hahas.. then yest wenbin and ronghui take off as they went out to play.. and the factory no work too.. so coincidence la... LOLzz..
On the way to home yest.. uncle wenbin ask me to had breakfast with him and ronghui, but i din.. as im damn tired de la.. ask him go jp he dun wan.. not fair lo.. so i also dun wan to go cwp too.. =P LOLzz.. we argue for 2 days since starting of work.. hahas.. first day of work i saw qq but he like dun care abt us de lor.. so after work i msg him and ask is it bcos he dun wanna see me.. but he say not.. think maybe i think too much le ba.. but he treat us so cold lo.. like he dunno us like that.. qq bring us to bus stop then he walk so fast till we lost his track.. then second day he din come.. then the uncle wenbin ask y qq nva come i din tell him.. hahas.. like i noe like that...=.=
No work for two days also gd ar.. cos can rest.. Hahas.. but lesser pay to take.. hahas.. regarding the first day of uncle wenbin "down on luck" story i will not say le la.. cos he ask me not to post.. Hahas.. anw its damn funny de la.. so ke lian.. hahas..
This is the Jolin's Shirt that i mentioned earlier on. I bought it today after sch at JP "Pink Q".. the sales assistant is very friendly, and i keep bargaining for a better price, lastly she sell it to me at $51 for both.. the necklace is counted tgt de. worth it lah.. OMg.. hahas. after that i saw tis black colour poka dotz dress/shirt. its so elegant and girly.. i love it.. tis is the last piece, the sales assistant called and ask about the ordering of tis shirt, but the ppl say no stock le.. hahas. luckily i saw it first. Wahahas. after JP i went home, and tidy up my room, and throw out a big bag of my unwanted clothings. hahas.cos my wardrobe is going to burst soon le la.. LOlzz.. and nOw it looks much better. =) still waiting for my agent to call. sianzz. if he nva call i need to say sorri to all my frenz that wanna to work de le.. really sorri to keep u guys waiting, i will try to keep on contacting my agent de.. dun worry.=) -Aka Co- (.nn.)V
Exam is over!! woOhoO!! Mon is my hols.. going to work at Motorola Factory again.. hahas..
Yest is so qiao that i run into Alan and Ah Mao at Causeway FoodCourt when im with Cam..
We r juz away for about 3 tables onli, and we didnt saw each other at first.. LOLzz..
After that we run into Xinni and XiaoClar when we r at the exit door to home..
Wow.. suddenly saw so many of qq frenz.. after that when i went home received xueting msg and call.. cos wenbin need a job.. as his sch is having a hols too..
Today went to sch but nva step into sch.. cos after meeting the gals they said they wanna come my hse, so i agree with it lo.. b4 going to my hse we went to walk ard JP and i saw a beautiful shirt plus the same necklace, its having a discount rite now, the shirt tgt with the necklace is $29.90 b4 that is $35.90.. OMG.. its so worth it lahx.. and Jolin Cai Yi Lin wear exactly the same b4 .. Cos the shop sells shirt that Artist wear b4 de.. Theres even the photo of the Artist wearing the shirt on.. After trying they said that it looks great on me.. I love it toO.. But no money yet.. Cos haven work ma.. Waiting for my agent to confirm the job rite now.. But anw, im gonna buy the shirt no matter wad.. Hahas.. When they reaches my hse i teaches them some piano song and watch youtube and play psychology test.. after that i sent them to the bus interchange..
Thats how i spend my day..
After tml Im FREE!! LOLzz..
PS: losing u is a great thing, cos by losing u i gain a brand new life*
*tks those that hurt u, cos they make u learn and grow*
Today i got back my BEO paper, a paper that makes me so stress up and nervous ever since my ITE life.. and when i got back my paper that moment, im so overjoy and proud of myself, cos i score 95/100, b4 converted to 100% is 47.5/50.. damn happy de la.. WOohOO!! xD
Teacher say that the exam qs will be something like that.. im damn happy de.. Cos im sure i can do even better then tis.. *proud* =)
Tml is my POA and BEO exam le.. hope im not tooo nervous till i forget wad i've memorized.. hahas.. Juz now after sch go to buy lollipop to reward myself.. =)
and i saw a gigantic lollipop.. omg.. but too ex.. so no money to buy.. its $28.. haizz.. next time got money le then buy.. hahas.. also not sure i will take how long to finish up the lollipop even if i bought it.. LOLzz.. and then i saw Hello Kitty mooncakes.. Aww.. I WAn.. but 1 for $6.70.. =( but buy le i also dun bare to eat it up.. hahas.. better dun waste my money.. hehe..
Thats all ba..
*work hard for wad u wan, and u will not leave any regrets behind*
im a lil timid when comes to relationship.. i tend to avoid facing the person that i love and telling them how i feel.. so i use tis small corner to let him noe abt my life..
:"i will work hard for myself and learn to be brave all the times even without u by my side..
i will always think of u. u know wad? today when i get back my paper, im so happy.. cos i study for tis test and the outcome is juz wad i expected.. i get 97/100.. is actually 29/30.. but convert to 100% is 97.. i really hope u noe that i really did listen to ur words in the past and work hard for myself..
After u left me in the past, i started to skipped lesson and forget abt my test.. but i noe thats not wad i wan, so i wanna to gib myself a chance to work hard for my test and everything that i do..
i juz wanna let u noe that i will live well even without u, cos i wanna to prove to u that i will not be a burden to u anymore, and hope ulet me carry ur burden away frm u..
everything that i do i will always rem wad u told me in the past..
u r not my consultant, u r my love ones..
*after knowing u my life turns black and white,cos u r the rainbow in my life*
u r juz like the rainbow, appeared after the rain, and went off when the sun shines..
i hope u stay in my life even after the sun shine, but not always appearing in my life when my heart is raining..
Hmm.yesterday went out to study with my classmate at wld library, then after that went home..
At nite i chatted with Camellia regarding "his" thing.. and.. he rejected me again.. but i will not give up de.. cOs i believe that as long as i still love him i should carry on tis feeling.. if not its not fair to my heart..
I wanted to gib up many times, but i juz couldnt, cos im those kind that r very 'zuan yi'.. haha.. praising myself oops.=x
But its true! cos even ppl ard me can sense that im very 'chi qin'.. hahas.. actually i didnt ask him personally.. is camellia go and ask him then i noe de... then cam say he said that "even if patch also cant last long ar".. =.="
Last long??hmm.. think hes too matured thats y his tots is way diff frm mine.. cos i find that if u love someone, juz go for it and do not leave any regret behind.. but for him.. i find that he might be thinking that love is a burden to him and tis burden is too heavy for him to carry along his way, its too tiring to him le.. being single is care-free to him.. i noe that single is gd, so now im juz hoping that i can love him in tis simple way, knowing his fine is a great happiness to me =)
i will remain single all the way.. i will not accept anyone else except him.. cos his the onli guy that i've stead b4 that make me change in my tots totally.. he let me noe that actually love can be silent.. u dun have to be tgt with that person, but that person will still remain in ur heart.. his the one that let me felt tis way b4.. and his a great guy, his my MR RIGHT.. sometimes i hate his bad point like he keep everything in him, but the more he choose to bare all the responsibility by himself the more i love him... i enjoy loving him tis way.. his bad point is his gd point.. no matter wad happen i will still love him like now.. =)
His not my everything, but becos of him, i become more understanding.
i ask cam yest, "how come i didn't cry tis time when he rejected me?"
cam said:"crying doesnt means that u love that person even more"..
i totally agree with her words and tis makes me have a new tots regarding 'love'..
in the past im too blind to noe that actually loving is not giving or taking..
its actually the process that make it more interesting and lively..
by involving in the relationship can let u learn alot of thing...
learning to be more independent and stronger..
and open up urself to others..=)
I noe that he love me once, and he noe that i love him once.
its that simple..
and i dun allowed myself to carry any hope to patch with him, but i noe that we still have feelings de..
Cos no matter wad we once fell in love with each other b4, and i believe feelings will not fade away so fast de.. he didn't say to cam yest that he dun like me, but is juz bcos he felt that relationship cant last.. so he choose to be single.. as long as i noe that we still carry that lil feeling.. i will not gib up so easily..
Today damn moody.. as yesterday i suddenly saw that my precious bag had some marks on it scroll down and u will know how it look like.. i cry on the way to sch as i really couldn't control my own feelings, i feel so helpless that ppl is at my back trying to harm me.. but.. today i found out that it actually is a misunderstanding.. cos i accidentally saw that my table had the same mark as my bag de.. then i realised that it is actually stained when i placed my bag on the table and dunno which idiot is it that draw the alphabet on the table when its time for my class to come in.. and my bag is so innocent that its actually kanna by the stupid blue ink.. after sch meet my sis and go JP eat then brought a watch.. Below are some pic that i've taken last few days but forgot to post.. My "The Body Shop" Membership Card has arrived.. hahas. xD The HP Strap that I brought last weeks at Mnitoon.. Cute ba.. hahas.=) I bring it with me everyway.. its now on my HP... (.nn.)V The Maggi Mee that my mum brought last week.. I feel like we're like refugee.. OMG.. hahahs.. The stained that kanna my bag.. haizz.. the pic quite blurr.. hahahs. its actually a "A B C D" but onli "B C D" is printed on my bag.. the "B" dun look like "B" lor... dunnO wads actually... cos since there "A C D" then i assume the second letter is "B" lo.. Still trying my best to get rid of it.. ANYONE WHO KNOW HOW TO REMOVED PEN INK FROM BAG PLS KINDLY TELL ME TKS! =) The Lollipop that I got yesterday by "Bossini".. Cos it reopen yesterday with a "Green" concept.. Its sooOo GREEN la.. LOLzz. The "Hello Kitty" watch frm Korea.. hahas. i bought it le.. YEAH~ hahahs.. Its soOo "blink" la.. LOLzz. that aLL ba.. -Aka Co- (.nn.)V
Yesterday damn tired de.. but still manage to climb up from bed and call cam.. to tell her that im awake and whehther we're going out anot.. At first we both dun really feel like going out de.. but issac called camellia and ask her whether she wanna go out anot.. cos he dun feel like going to his Japan Class.. Then we called Gary and the 4 of us conference in the morning and all 3 of us sound so sleepy de la.. LOLzz. (except issac, cos he already prepared to go out le) Then we meet at CCK Control to recreate camellia Ez-link.. After that we took bus to Orchard and then we went to Cine to sing K Box.. We REALLY ENJOYED OURSELVES YESTERDAY NITE.. WoohOo~ xD I become the one who sing duet with the 2 guys.. hahas.. and their vocal is marvellous man.. hahas... And of cos my cammy voice ROCK the whole cabin la.. LOLzz.. Love Love Love!!! It feels like all my bad memory had gone.. hahas... Nothing to say regarding today.. Cos sch day ma.. haha.. onli can say my CA is coming.. going to studystudy and study le.. Gary, Camellia, Isaac (the couzins) (^^) Me, Isaac, Camellia (We know each other from 2 yrs ago at JLH) Me, Gary, Camellia ( Gary the youngest in the group..Muahaha) happy family~~ (.nn.)V
I ask myself is he that important?without him in the last few yrs, i'm still living so well right now..
How come without him right now, my life is so miserable.. SSB once ask me "is'it bcos u still can't let go the past memories?" i didn't answered him.
as i didn't noe how to say.
and i'm so stress that i actually scream in my room tis morning, couldn't sleep and couldn't do my work.. What's happening to me??!!
I'm acting like a fool right now, all my frenz that i talked to, ask me to let him noe about my tots..
But.. i juz dun wanna let him noe by my mouth, i'm stubborn i noe..
If times turn back, how i wished i'll let him noe that even if ur mum wanna break us up, i will still stand by ur side and wouldnt let u go..
i noe im wrong that i actually force u to decide who u wan, ur mum or me..
i noe that's a silly qs, and whenever im feeling down, u r always there for me, but i always choose not to let u involve in my problem that i'm facing..
i noe that u feel insecure that i actually keep all my feelings inside me, i only allowed u to share my happiness but not my sorrow..
and u also did that to me too..
not onli me and u think that we're alike in some way, but even ppl who noe us feel that we're too alike..
the period that we're tgt, i didn't called u dar dar b4, unless u ask for..
how i wished i can call u "DAR DAR" rite now...
im a sotong(like wad u say), i always forgot to treasure wad i have and always looking for more in u.. im sorry dar dar, pls let me say tis words one last time..
"I LOVE U"
PS:tks for the memories that u left with me, even though we cant be tgt rite now, i will still continue to think of u, cos i really dun wish to even forgot the small happiness that we have in the past, cos in that memories, There's U & ME, that make it so special that i cant bare to throw away. .now we're so cold towards each other, i feel really miserable inside my heart..
its like u uses knifes to cut my heart,
and its bleeding right now..
i hope we still can be the soulmate like wad we're b4 we're tgt..
sOme pic taken today at causeway point.. (place that mii and cam went today to rest)
Today went to sch as per normal..
But its juz that i din went to the last few lesson..Cos i'm really super duper down today..
Cos i msg "him" and he din reply me.. haiz.. and when i msg for another time to check whether did he received my msg anot.. he said "sorry juz now on the phone,now going to sleep lo" and that's the end of our conversation for today.. damn sad de la..
So i skipped my lesson and went to find Cam..
After i went home i msg xueting, cos i'm damn troubled de la.. and she adviced mii to let him noe bout it.., will reconsider de.. But for the moment, i'm damn low-confidence de lor.. afraid to be hurt again... haizz.. How i wish tis feeling will fade off.. sO that i'll not be so troubled now..
5/9/07 HappY Bdae Wei Ling Celebrated weiling bdae after the lesson.. as our PE lesson was being cancelled.. sO we played in the class.. hahas.. And today xueting msg mii to ask for my hotmail as she wanna sent mii some of the "hello kitty" blogskins preview.. Wahaha.. sO sweet of her.. Tis blogskin of mine is done by her.. Tks sO much girl.. xD We bought her tis~ xD Cos she's called "monkey".. Wahaha.. and she lub monkey lotsa too.. The BDAE GIRL!! xD Smiling happily with her monkey.. hahas. Our Group..(7 flower) Wahaha.. none is missing... =P EnjoY!! =X
Today morning received "his" msg then know that he working yesterday nite.. Cos the company sot sot de.. Suddenly ask them back to work.. Then i called him and chatted with "him" in the morning and damn sick de la.. So he ask me wad happen to my voice, then I say i'm not feeling well.. sO he ask me not to attend school, and ask me to go see doctor.. Haha.. damn happy that he care for me de la... xD
Then when went to school my group keep making use of my weak point and "sour" me on the way to school...
But also not sure why whenever they say "his" name i'll suddenly smile.. Wahaha.. sO embarass de la.. Haha.. then went to school and do our SOT thing... Finally done with all the SOT stuff le...
Haha.. Test coming le.. Sianzz ar... And hols coming in another 2 weeks time.. hahaha... Hoping to earn money... Wahahaha...
After school went to eat at the hawker centre near our school de... Then went home afterward..
Right now chatting with cam and waiting for JiaHui de call, cos he say he got thing to ask me..Hmm.. wondering what he wanna say .. Haha..
sO sianzz.. hope that i recover soon.. and waiting for next day morning to call "him" ..hehe...
Yesterday feel so damn sick de.. then today morning couldn't climb out from bed.. damn sick de aR... aRgh... Then during the last two lesson of BOE.. my soul dunnO went to where le.. damn tired and sick de ar... then Rachel suddenly tapped me on my shoulder and i'm shocked sia.. She told me that its already on the next page le, but i'm still on the first page.. haha..
Then teacher gave us 10 min break, and i juz lied down and fall aslp immediately.. Rachel waked me for awhile then i finally waked up .. haha.. if not going to get scolding le ar... haha..
OhYa, today went to J8 and buy Weiling's present after sch.. haha.. with rachel,weiting,jingxian,yeowei,nicholas,jiahui and alvin... After we brought the present and off we going home, i feel a sudden pain on my gastric and feel giddy soon after that.. Damn weak de ar.. aRgh.. luckily i manage to reach home alone... Wahaha.. reach home and eat dinner then chat with cam... damn sad that i actually didn't have the courage to let "him" know that i still love "him".. Wad should i do??.. i'm really afraid to get hurt again... but... I juz couldn't get him off my head.. aRgh.. I hate tis "Corina"..sO go ard the bushed.. aRgh.. hated aR..!!
Honestly speaking i'm jealous that qq always called cam and msg her first b4 me.. that make me feel even lost... haizz..
Today damn emotional de.. Juz now chatted with hh regarding whether to let "him" noe that i still love him anot... Juz got a little courage then suddenly disappear le... Cos juz noe i chat with "him" then chat till half way he didn't reply me... then i realised that he chatting with cam on the phone... and cam also nva reply me in msn.. sO when they both came back i throw missy temper at them.. then i offline.. "he" wanted to explain to me.. but i dun wanna listen... and cam call me i also nva answer... damn "fan" at that moment de... But after that i answer cam call.. then she explain everything to me... haizz... damn emotion now de... dunno wad to do... i dun wanna tell him le la... feel so insecure now le.. scare that he doesn't love me as much as i love him... haizz.. Will think again ba.. And tks hh for the courage that u gave me earlier on... =) tata.xD -Aka Co- (.nn.)V
But it seems like the blog dun allowed... I couldn't change leh...
Can someone help mii...=(
Wishing that hols come soon.. as I need money...
hahas.. heard that qq they all wanna work too...
Hmm.. should I go back to the motorola factory??
I need to reconsider le... haha.. Cam talk to mii yest and says that qq they all make her very "wei nan", as our agent sounds very "pek cek".. cos they say wanna morning shift but after that they change their mind... making my dear cam so "pek cek" too... pooR Cam... u muz be in a diff position ba...
hahaha.. Last few weeks wanna to learn this piano song called "bu neng shuo de mi mi" but learn till half way onli.. as there's not much spare time for me to learn it... haizz..
I saw two person.. Guess who??
1)Chee Khong(Di) at our block.. cos we live at the same block.. then we went to take train tgt.. Haha... Long time nva saw him le.. he look quite diff frm the past... xD
2)Wen Jie(kor).. he look so tired.. quite pity him.. think his very busy with his sch work ba..
Last time I went out with the both of them almost everyday de... But now we didn't even had the time to meet out..
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