ending=new beginning
Hmm.yesterday went out to study with my classmate at wld library, then after that went home..
At nite i chatted with Camellia regarding "his" thing.. and.. he rejected me again.. but i will not give up de.. cOs i believe that as long as i still love him i should carry on tis feeling.. if not its not fair to my heart..
I wanted to gib up many times, but i juz couldnt, cos im those kind that r very 'zuan yi'.. haha.. praising myself oops.=x
But its true! cos even ppl ard me can sense that im very 'chi qin'.. hahas.. actually i didnt ask him personally.. is camellia go and ask him then i noe de... then cam say he said that "even if patch also cant last long ar".. =.="
Last long??hmm.. think hes too matured thats y his tots is way diff frm mine.. cos i find that if u love someone, juz go for it and do not leave any regret behind.. but for him.. i find that he might be thinking that love is a burden to him and tis burden is too heavy for him to carry along his way, its too tiring to him le.. being single is care-free to him.. i noe that single is gd, so now im juz hoping that i can love him in tis simple way, knowing his fine is a great happiness to me =)
i will remain single all the way.. i will not accept anyone else except him.. cos his the onli guy that i've stead b4 that make me change in my tots totally.. he let me noe that actually love can be silent.. u dun have to be tgt with that person, but that person will still remain in ur heart.. his the one that let me felt tis way b4.. and his a great guy, his my MR RIGHT.. sometimes i hate his bad point like he keep everything in him, but the more he choose to bare all the responsibility by himself the more i love him... i enjoy loving him tis way.. his bad point is his gd point.. no matter wad happen i will still love him like now.. =)
His not my everything, but becos of him, i become more understanding.
i ask cam yest, "how come i didn't cry tis time when he rejected me?"
cam said:"crying doesnt means that u love that person even more"..
i totally agree with her words and tis makes me have a new tots regarding 'love'..
in the past im too blind to noe that actually loving is not giving or taking..
its actually the process that make it more interesting and lively..
by involving in the relationship can let u learn alot of thing...
learning to be more independent and stronger..
and open up urself to others..=)
I noe that he love me once, and he noe that i love him once.
its that simple..
and i dun allowed myself to carry any hope to patch with him, but i noe that we still have feelings de..
Cos no matter wad we once fell in love with each other b4, and i believe feelings will not fade away so fast de.. he didn't say to cam yest that he dun like me, but is juz bcos he felt that relationship cant last.. so he choose to be single.. as long as i noe that we still carry that lil feeling.. i will not gib up so easily..
Dar Dar, i love u so..
-baobei-
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